The Way I Used to Be

  • by Amber Smith
  • Narrated by Rebekkah Ross
  • 9 hrs and 36 mins
  • Unabridged Audiobook

Publisher's Summary

In the tradition of Speak, this extraordinary debut novel shares the unforgettable story of a young woman as she struggles to find strength in the aftermath of an assault.
Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn't change who she was. But the night her brother's best friend rapes her, Eden's world capsizes.
What was once simple is now complex. What Eden once loved - who she once loved - she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she's supposed to tell someone what happened, but she can't. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.
Told in four parts - freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior years - this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman's strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, while learning to embrace a power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.


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Not a fair review

I didn't listen to the whole book but skipped forward to the end. I didn't know how to rate this book. The narration was great but the story bothered me so much that I couldn't keep listening - and maybe that is really the tell of a great book? I just couldn't continue to listen to the pain of an experience that hits so close to home. This rating is more for me than for you.
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- Yikes "Books are a big part of my life. Happiness is a beautiful evening on the houseboat with a good book :)"

Rough but Rewarding Read

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This book is not the easiest to finish due to the emotional content. I remember taking it in smaller doses when it got to be too much. Other times, I took large doses and stayed up till 6 in the morning. Overall, I was really moved by this book. It brought me back in time to when the popular, older girls would hang in the bathroom in high school and put their make-up on in the mirror. It brought back memories of being a freshman living in my first college dorm. Alas, it was hard to sit and wait for her to finally be able to tell someone she was raped, but the book was worthwhile.

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- Amber Rae "I'm a clinical psychology doctorate student. I love to read a good romance or ya novel to escape from the everyday stresses of life."

Book Details

  • Release Date: 03-22-2016
  • Publisher: Simon & Schuster Audio