The First Time She Drowned

  • by Kerry Kletter
  • Narrated by Jorjeana Marie
  • 10 hrs and 19 mins
  • Unabridged Audiobook

Publisher's Summary

The beautiful struggle of a girl desperate for the one relationship that has caused her the most pain.
Cassie O'Malley has spent the past two and a half years in a mental institution - dumped there by her mother, against her will. Now, at 18, Cassie emancipates herself, determined to start over. She attends college, forms new friendships, and even attempts to start fresh with her mother. But before long, their unhealthy relationship threatens to pull Cassie under once again. As Cassie struggles to reclaim her life, childhood memories persist and confuse, and Cassie must consider whose version of history is real, and, more important, whose life she must save.
A bold, literary story about the fragile complexities of mothers and daughters and learning to love oneself, The First Time She Drowned reminds us that we must dive deep into our pasts if we are ever to move forward.


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I couldn't wait to walk

I listen to my audiobooks when I exercise each day. As much as I dislike exercising I found I could not wait to get out and walk so I could hear what was next. There was so much to love about this book. The characters, the twists and turns, imagining the different endings that could turn out. I highly recommend it
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- M. Robertazzi

Depression Surfaces and Drowns At the Same Time

This is an odd book. It's extremely depressing. The narrator of the book is a female- and she goes back and forth from her childhood to her early years as an adult. Her mother was abused by her grandmother, and then in turn, she was extremely emotionally abused by her mother. She is placed in an 'insane asylum' for years, and when she gets out she has to learn to live among peers/friends and people in general again.

She also has to come to grips with the fact that the way she was treated wasn't her fault. Her mother was deeply mentally ill- but of course as a child you wouldn't know this.

The story is solid and the characters are fairly strong. The book is extremely depressing though- but it does stick to a very important theme in life- you should stick with people who make you feel good about yourself, not those who make you feel horribly.

I felt that there could have been so much more added to this novel to make it a bit more interesting. It's a very good attempt at a book about mental illness and it's affects, but something falls short of this being a 4 star book. I am glad I read it, and I would recommend this book to anyone who doesn't mind depressing stories.

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- Wendi "Canadian girl in Kansas, love audible, books on kindle or kindle fire, and old fashioned books! I enjoy fiction most, mostly books with strong female leads. Favourite authors: Diana Gabaldon, Stephen King, Jodi Picoult, Wally Lamb, Pat Conroy, Andre Dubus III, Lisa Genova, many more!"

Book Details

  • Release Date: 03-15-2016
  • Publisher: Listening Library