Many narcissists go through life on autopilot. They spew words of disdain and dissatisfaction everywhere they go. This spewing is often a recording of whatever the negativistic adults around him said when the narcissist was a child. He memorized racial attacks, bullying from the adults to subordinates, movie quotes where one person was bullying another, and offensive language that others used around him. The narcissist uses the slang that his equally harsh friends used when they bullied others, or the nasty words his siblings used to taunt him when he was a youngster.
Narcissists hate their own life. They hate that they have never fit in. They hate that they were bullied as youngsters. They hate that they were left behind or abandoned by many. They hate that they got bad grades in school. They hate that they flunked out of college. They hate that members of the opposite sex didn't give them enough attention. They hate that they have a long list of failed relationships, or that they could never get any relationships started at all.
Narcissists hate that they can't live up to the expectations of others. Heck, they can't even live up to their own expectations. They hate that their parents are disappointed in them. They hate that they can't sustain meaningful friendships or relationships anywhere they go. They hate that the adults around them always had expectations that were just out of their reach. They hate that they weren't allowed to play football because of a hovering or over-protective parent. They hate that everything wasn't served up to them on a silver platter.
©2017 Jamie Keller (P)2017 Jamie Keller