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Would you live a lie to hold onto the one you love?
Dean and Jason are best friends, like brothers since boyhood, now architecture students and college roommates. They've always had each other's back, but when one walks in on the other with another man, everything changes. How do you explain to your best friend that he's the one you've always wanted, that until now your life has been a lie?
Desperation and shame are two dirty words that run through Jason's veins. He carries the scars from a wayward priest who stole his innocence and left him shattered. Meanwhile for years he's watched Dean pursuing woman after woman, as his own heart slowly breaks.
When their world blows apart, they learn the powerful bond between them has more fire than either understood. Can two broken souls find the light in their darkness and come together to make a whole, or will sins of the past be forever unforgiven?
©2017 Ruth Clampett (P)2017 Tantor
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5 out of 5 stars
By Lord_Theoden on 07-08-17

Great book! 💘

this book was so good. Jason is a gay man who is in love with his childhood friend Dean but he feels wrong for loving him because at an early age he was molested by his priest who told him he was sinful for the feelings he felt for boys, so he plays straight for a while. Dean who is straight doesn't know what his friend went through but he catches him one day with a man, and that just sets him on a confusing emotional roller coaster of jealousy and. curiosity about his own sexuality.
Dean can come across as a butt hole a lot in this book but then in the same breath he redeems himself by being the rock in Jason's life that he desperately needs. Jason is of course a broken man, so he has lots of weak, vulnerable times in the book.
I loved the book I could have listened to another 10hrs. I hope there's a book 2 just so I can revisit these characters, I like how Dean tries in vain to resist Jason, and how his love grows so deep for Jason. this book is worth the credit/money, and reread.

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5 out of 5 stars
By Amazon Customer on 08-03-17

GRRRR!!!! But - It's a Keeper!

I was ready to kill Dean for over a Third of this book! But I also realized this is probably a realistic reaction for some people. Dean and Jason are an interesting and complicated dynamic. They were both really good people. I really liked Jason. It saddens me how people believe whatever the church says without any investigation or self-examination. How a parent could reject their child is beyond me. This was well worth listening to and I will listen to it again! Both narrators were good, pacing was pretty good. I am going to check into more of Ruth's writing!

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4 out of 5 stars
By Shook on 10-16-17

Odd voices

Story was good. The narrators voice was a little distracting especially when doing female voices.

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