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A long time ago, Joel Wentworth told me he'd love me for infinity...and I can't give up hope that it might have been true.
How long does it take to get over your first love?
Eight years should be long enough. My mind knows that, but there's no convincing my heart.
Guys like Joel weren't supposed to fall for girls like me. He had his pick of women at University, but somehow the laws of nature were defied and we fell crazy in love.
After graduation, Joel left to pursue his career in New York. He wanted me to go with him but my life was in London.
We broke up and my heart split in two.
I haven't seen or spoken to him since he left.
If only I'd known that I'd love him this long, this painfully, this desperately. I might have said yes all those years ago. He might have been mine all this time in between.
Now, he's moving back to London and I need to get over him before he gets over here.
But how do I forget someone who gave me so much to remember?
©2015, 2016, 2017 Louise Bay (P)2017 Louise Bay
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4 out of 5 stars
By April Blackmon on 10-27-17

Not my favorite

Ava's lack of confidence became rather annoying after a few chapters. How did Joel not move on from her? In Uni I could understand a little bit of her lack of confidence but after a bit it's like OMG! He wants you get out over it. Then in adulthood you can't tell your friends you were once in love and still are in love with him. Grow up. I normally like Louise Bay books but, this one did t hit the mark for me.

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2 out of 5 stars
By CAROLYN on 11-11-17


This British book is titled just right.. because I was HOPEFUL it would get better. HOPEFUL the heroine Ava would grow a pair and grow up. HOPEFUL the story would be more than her inner monologues of hero Joel’s many virtues compared to her long list of inadequacies. I was HOPEFUL the narrator’s talented voice could rescue the plot. I was HOPEFUL I hadn’t wasted a credit. And finally, I was HOPEFUL my growing frustration and dislike of this book would fade.. but sadly I was very disappointed on all counts.

It’s told in ever changing past and present chapters from Ava’s stained POV of herself with an eight year gap separating the times. Ava’s twenty yr old law student self watches cool, handsome and popular Joel mix well at the University that they, and their joint group of friends, attend. A study partnership slowly evolved into love but Ava was determined to keep it a secret from everyone - including their friends. Eventually difficult choices had to be made and that set the scene for them reuniting years later with the ‘present’ chapters with Ava’s doubts and dilemmas over Joel’s return, her unchanged love and longing for him, how she can prepare herself (and her boyfriendless situation) for his return and the mess that ensues after his return.

Worth a credit? I’ve enjoyed the other books written by Louise Bay (some more than others) and I certainly don’t have the patience, skills or talents to write a Novella let alone a whole book. But, IMO, the angle of this story was wrong because I longed to get out of Ava’s head filled with her constant low self-worth destructive thoughts about her many many failings compared to Joel’s many many virtues. And I blew out a huge sigh of relief at the end of this book.. but unfortunately it wasn’t a happy contented sigh after an enjoyable and entertaining story - so NO, sadly, I don’t think this is credit worthy.. in fact I’ll be asking for mine back.

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