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Publisher's Summary

This is a story about me, about who I am, about how I got to be me, and about the people who helped mold me into Makayla Carlie.
There comes a time when life's disappointments start to add up. When you can't cry one more tear. When you can't feel that surge of panic one more time, or when you can't pray for one more day. You wonder, are we humans having a spiritual experience, or are we spirits having a human experience? What does it all mean? Do we all have a purpose? People said I was a hero; that I could persevere through anything I put my mind to. How could I be a hero when I never got a choice? Nobody asked me.
I did what I hope anyone listening to this would do. While one life was taken too soon, another needed to live, really live. She needed to be the center of somebody's universe. I was that universe. Just like the pea under the mattress, I felt her.
©2015 Jettie Woodruff (P)2015 Jettie Woodruff
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5 out of 5 stars
By Veronica on 08-24-15

Ready for More Please!

I'm so looking forward to listening to the next book in this series. I commute and don't have time to read it myself so I have to wait for the audio version. I loved these characters, especially Pea! Plus this book ends on a bit of a cliff hanger so I'm dying here!

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5 out of 5 stars
By Misty on 09-12-16


Any additional comments?

Maybe all this had to happen for Pea.


Jettie Woodruff is a new author for me and this is my first book by her but most certainly not my last. I am absolutely taken by surprise at this very intricate and multifaceted story that Jettie has written.

Throughout the book you are Quentin Tarantino'd forward and back gaining more and more knowledge of how this young girl, Mikki, came to be on the run with a very sweet little girl nicknamed Pea.

Not only is it a very steamy romance, it is also the story of familial connection, lies, deceit, unconditional love, affairs, jealousy, mystery... I mean what else could Jettie have possibly packed into such a fantastic book? And even with all these layers, it is very easy to follow and so intriguing that you can't possibly put it down.

I love books about strong female leads and Mikki is one of the toughest. From the hand she was dealt before she was even born, she had the deck stacked against her yet her sheer determination and her undying love for this little Pea, makes her one tough broad. I loved Mikki.

And Blake. Oh, Blake. It wouldn't be fair to write much about Blake because he is part of the mystery and going into this book blind is the way it should be done.

I'm off to read book 2. I can't possibly let this parade end yet.

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