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Publisher's Summary

In her enthralling debut, Gilly Macmillan explores a mother's search for her missing son, weaving a taut psychological thriller as gripping and skillful as The Girl on the Train and The Guilty One.
In a heartbeat, everything changes....
Rachel Jenner is walking in a Bristol park with her eight-year-old son, Ben, when he asks if he can run ahead. It's an ordinary request on an ordinary Sunday afternoon, and Rachel has no reason to worry - until Ben vanishes.
Police are called, search parties go out, and Rachel, already insecure after her recent divorce, feels herself coming undone. As hours and then days pass without a sign of Ben, everyone who knew him is called into question, from Rachel's newly married ex-husband to her mother-of-the-year sister. Inevitably, media attention focuses on Rachel, too, and the public's attitude toward her begins to shift from sympathy to suspicion.
As she desperately pieces together the threadbare clues, Rachel realizes that nothing is quite as she imagined it to be, not even her own judgment. And the greatest dangers may lie not in the anonymous strangers of every parent's nightmares but behind the familiar smiles of those she trusts the most.
Where is Ben? The clock is ticking....
©2015 Gilly Macmillan (P)2015 Oakhill Publishing Ltd
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3 out of 5 stars
By C. Farrell on 02-26-16


I'd give this novel 2 1/2 stars if possible. Based on the reviews of other listeners and the Audible description, I expected it to be a lot more exciting. It's FAR less suspenseful, interesting, or well-written than The Girl on the Train. I kept waiting for some interesting twists and exciting discoveries, but no. It just slowly plods along to the "reveal" well into the story, and then, frustratingly, continues on for at least another hour with boring follow-ups on the characters, none of whom I cared much about.

The same ground was covered over and over -- how the main characters feel -- and even how they feel is monotonous: it's pretty much the same emotion described in different ways. The book could have been half the length without leaving anything out of the story.

As for the narration, it was fine -- not outstanding, and not bad. I didn't find the male narrator irritating at all (and little quirks really annoy me), and never thought he sounded winded or rushed.

Bottom line, I'd be hard-pressed to call this a "suspense" novel, or a "psychological thriller," or even just a "thriller." There is a mystery at the center, but the resolution isn't a huge surprise and my response was basically "ho hum." Oh, and I still don't know what the title refers to. Who is "she"? What did she know??

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3 out of 5 stars
By Simone on 01-11-16

Unhurried Suspense

I enjoyed the story but given the subject matter I was not anticipating the pace to be this slow.

It was not a page-turner, but that does not mean it wasn’t interesting - it was just not rushed. In a way, it reminded me of the pace of “Broadchurch” – suspenseful and interesting yet takes it’s time getting to where it wants to be.

I particularly liked the element of the blog comments which could be considered a form of cyber-bullying. It’s so easy to be cruel and self-righteous when you are anonymous! It demonstrated how destructive a mob mentality can be: Read an article in the paper, don’t bother to think about the other side of the story, take for granted that what you are reading is 100% accurate fact and denounce everyone involved.

Passing cold judgment on people you don’t know with no regard to their feelings or their families… It struck a chord with me.

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