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Julian is ugly. He knows it. Everyone knows it. He is also a boy with secrets. He's gay, his family owns the local funeral home, and he's not certain which secret he more desperately desires to keep. Julian is a wallflower, but tries out for the soccer team to please his father. Beyond all hope, he makes the team - and there he meets boys who change his life forever and a coach he suspects is trying to kill him.
Julian's greatest love is music. He slips off at lunch and after school to play the grand piano in the music room. His music attracts the attention of a secret admirer and for the first time ever someone sees beauty in Julian - his music.
The tragic death of teammates forces Julian to realize that he might not have as much time as he believed and leads him to take a desperate chance. Julian is determined to stop sitting on the sidelines of life. Friendship and love is worth any risk.
©2014 Mark A. Roeder (P)2015 Mark A. Roeder
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By Lifesavr on 04-13-15

I cried and laughed all the way.

Being gay myself a lot of what happens in this book has happened to me or surely I have such thoughts, especially when I was a teenager. The story is about being gay and fearing the hatred and bullying that it can attract. It is also seeing into what makes people who they are. How to measure the real beauty of each other. It is easy to be attracted to external beauty, but as we all know that is only skin deep. Knowing the kindness of others, their ability to love, is "true beauty" I feel and surely what I look for in others. This is a great story but it has eternal truths that we all need to remember and practice.

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By Greyson on 05-23-15

Great Story

I loved this book because it had a great realistic character. Someone who has body image issues. It shows that it truly isn't what is on the outside that matters.

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By Amazon Customer on 11-09-17


Excellent book, with an emotional ending. This book shows what homophobia in highschool was like

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