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Publisher's Summary

A survivor story
It's been nearly five years since Aaron woke up in the hospital so broken, he couldn't stand the sight of his own face. The flashbacks no longer dominate his life, but he's still unable to find intimacy with his lover, Spencer Thomas. With time, patience, and the support of his family, his therapist, and his loving partner, Aaron has figured out how to live again. The problem is, Spencer hasn't. His life has been on hold as he waits for the day he and Aaron can have a normal relationship. Hoping to move things forward for them both, he takes a job as a programmer in downtown Chicago, leaving Aaron alone.
Reeling in the wake of Spencer's absence, Aaron receives another shock when his attackers are caught.
Now, he must testify and verbalize his worst nightmare. Publicly reliving his trauma without Spencer at his side destroys his precarious control. But he finds someone who can understand and empathize in Jordan, who watched his brother cut down in a school shooting. With Spencer gone and the DA knocking at his door, Aaron seeks solace in Jordan, and Spencer will have to risk everything to hold on to Aaron's love.
©2014 J P Barnaby (P)2014 Dreamspinner Press
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5 out of 5 stars
By jon on 09-25-14

Aaron is the begining this is the next

Where does Spencer rank among all the audiobooks you’ve listened to so far?

This is a very special to be cause I have PTSD. If Aaron is about learning to cope and hope spencer is about closer and moving on. I think this is harder at point then Aaron. You get higher Highs and Lower lows.

What other book might you compare Spencer to and why?

It is hard to compare this book to most anything. I deals with issues few can handle and does it in a way to be that is insightful respectful and humane. It leads you to hard point without pushing it in a way to fully see the horror.

If you like this book you should also look into love at first sight (by Cadeno C,), A better place and the nudo twins (by Mark a Roeder), Ethan who loved Carter (by Ryan Loveless), Locker Room(by Amy Lane), Inhered the star (by Airal Tachna), A sold core of alpha and Locker Room (by Amy Lane), love comes silently, bottled up, and a taste of love (by Andrew Gray) all are on here.

Which character – as performed by Tyler Stevens – was your favorite?

I still love how Tyler Stevens manage Spencer voice and thought. Spencer is deaf from birth so he doesn't have the normal speech patterns most do. I don't think the books work so well without him. I never once felt Tyler wasn't Spencer when he talks.

Was this a book you wanted to listen to all in one sitting?

This is not a book you want to stop but also this book can hit harsh points you need to breath. The subject matter is so harsh Aaron is Spencer's lover of 3 years. Aaron and a friend abducted were sexually assaulted and left for dead. To quote Aaron " They left us there one went in an ambulances and the other a horst" when he was forced to publicly speak of it

Any additional comments?

I am using this space a a personal note from me a PTSD and survivor self. I can not tell you how many times I have listened to Aaron it is to many to count I think this book is the harsh and personal to me I recommend it to people trying to understand me or anyone dealing with PTSD. Will it be easy far from it but what is when it come to PTSD.

I have hoped and prayed this book would come to audio because I am extremely dyslexic and couldn't make it through the books. But this review is for Spencer a man with heart of gold. This book I feel is important to those trying to move on from PTSD and there partners with is about imposable to find. I know this almost to well myself, Seeing the sacrifices both put into this is hard almost imposable. The part of the book that felt personal was when Aaron was sick on the bathroom floor being held by spencer. I don't know if there more books for this story but I really hope so also.

I don't know if J.P. Barnaby ever reads these but if so god bless you from a Indiana guy you really have made not feel as alone.

I hope you buy this book and thanks for reading this

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4 out of 5 stars
By Mark Dulebohn Jr on 02-22-16

very good

one of the best gay novels I've listen to. the ending was a little predictable though. besides that it was pretty good.

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