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Michael Thomas Ford Mike Monaghan is the bartender at the Engine Room, a meeting place for the small but thriving community of gay men in Cold Falls, New York. As Mike pours beer, wipes glasses and hears everything, he's also witness to the men who come here looking for what they need--sex, direction, friendship, spiritual fulfillment, and love. People like: Stephen Darby--As an accountant, he knows many secrets. But Stephen has his own secret, one he's never been able to share with anyone close to him. Being the perfect son costs him dearly, and now it may take from him the one man he longs for.
Pete Thayer--Playing it straight, Pete takes out his frustrations on transmissions and engines during the day, then spends his nights trying to quench his needs through anonymous sex. But once the thrill of the forbidden begins to fade, what will he be left with? John and Russell--The golden couple in town has the ideal relationship everyone wants. But behind the scenes, their storybook marriage is on the verge of facing some explosive trials that will shake both men completely.
Father Thomas Dunn--More and more the gentle priest is feeling a need to express the secret desires that conflict with his devotion to the church, sending his faith into a tailspin and making him question what he really wants from life. Simon Bird--He's a fixture in town, an old queen everyone finds amusing and entertaining. Still mourning the loss of his longtime lover, Simon yearns to find love and a place in a culture that worships youth and beauty.
As Mike hands these men their drinks, he marvels at their determination, strength and foolishness. But most of all, he begins to question his own dissatisfaction, pondering what's missing from his own life, and what risks he may have to take to find fulfillment. Looking For It is an extraordinarily human tale of community, friendship, and the search for happiness. With unflinching honesty, keen insight, and his trademark humor, Michael Thomas Ford weaves together the unforgettable stories of these seven men, chronicling their dreams, hurts, heartbreaks, joys, and hopes, while taking readers on an emotional journey to find what it is we're all looking for.
©2005 Michael Thomas Ford (P)2013 Audible, Inc.
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By Tyler Scott Miller on 01-28-15

Refreshing and Hot

Great story with hot scenes. Worth a listen if you're tired of bland erotica. I think it might have ended a little too quickly though.

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By Windwolf13 on 08-18-16

Beware the Pete chapters

An enjoyable read with dynamic characters. I recommend skipping any chapters with the Pete character in them. they are hyper-violent and quite full of hate speech. the rest of the story and characters would have easily earned five stars from me. each chapter focuses on a different character. I enjoyed watching the different relationships, in particular the budding new ones. best of luck Simon!

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By Mr. J. A. Ball on 06-20-17

Enjoyable but preachy at times.

I found the narrator hard to get used to, as he sounded like the narrator from Rocky and Bullwinkle. That made the sex scenes a bit awkward to me.
I didn't feel like the story flowed well and a little too much deus ex machina for my tastes, which took it out of the bounds of believability at times.
I found it a bit hard to follow who was who until near the end of the book.
Overall I enjoyed it but have previously preferred the author's non - fiction publications much more. The easy humour of those books was sadly missing here.

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