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Law school, girlfriends, and career choices were all part of Raymond Tyler's life, but there were other, more terrifying issues for him to confront. Being black was tough enough, but Raymond was becoming more and more conscious of sexual feelings that he knew weren't "right." He was completely committed to Sela, his longtime girlfriend, but his attraction to Kelvin, whom he had met during his last year in law school, had become more than just a friendship. No matter how much he tried to suppress them, his feelings were deeply sexual. Fleeing to New York to escape both Sela and Kelvin, Raymond finds himself more confused than ever before. New relationships - both male and female - give him enormous pleasure but keep him from finding the inner peace and lasting love he so desperately desires. The horrible illness and death of a friend force Raymond, at last, to face the truth.
©1999 E. Lynn Harris (P)1999 Random House, Inc., Bantam Doubleday Dell Audio Publishing, A Division of Random House Inc.
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"One of the most thought-provoking books written about male sexuality, particularly black male sexuality, since James Baldwin's Another Country." (Richmond Voice)
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5 out of 5 stars
By Michele on 04-01-05


captures the reader with it's twists and turns and left me wanting to read the next book. one has to really empathized with "RAY" and his discovery of "self".

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3 out of 5 stars
By Stephanie on 06-28-08


I heard of this author and this book when news of black men on the down low became a hot topic of discussion. I did not read it then I was not interested in the topic at that time. I saw it here and thought what the heck. It was an enlightening listen. I don't have an opinion about gay people in general. To each it's own. I guess the book served it's purpose for me. I don't think I will listen to the rest of the books by this author if the storyline continues like this. This not the image I want to have of professional African American men. For those who want an eye opening experience as to how this could happen take a listen you probably won't be disappointed in the content.

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