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For five years, Zach Tyler, son of one of the world’s richest software moguls, was held hostage, tortured, and abused. When he is rescued at last from the Venezuelan jungle, he is physically and psychologically shattered, but he slowly begins to rebuild the life he should have had before an innocent kiss sent him into hell.
His childhood best friend David has lived those years with overwhelming guilt and grief. Every relationship David has tried has fallen apart because of his feelings for a boy he thought dead. When Zach is rescued, David is overjoyed - and then crushed when Zach shuts him out. Two years later, David returns home, and he and Zach must come to terms with the rift between them, what they feel for each other, and what their future could hold. But Zach has secrets, and one of them might well destroy their fragile love.
©2010 Rowan Speedwell (P)2012 Rowan Speedwell
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4 out of 5 stars
By Donald on 03-15-12

Overcoming the impossible...

The listener is drawn in as soon as the tale of Zach Tyler begins. Sympathy for the main character is a given and the descriptive writing style of Rowan Speedwell creates the horrific images that places the listener in the heart of the tale. The narration by Paul Morey added to the story and encouraged one to hope for the best. A love story with a tragic twist and an eventual happy ending, makes for an excellent read.

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3 out of 5 stars
By Jane on 11-17-12

3 ½ stars. I enjoyed the relationship development

but some parts were heavier than I was in the mood for.

David was like a big-brother-best-friend to Zach while growing up. At age 15 Zach kisses David for the first time. Then they are separated when Zach flies to visit a relative and gets kidnaped. Now it’s several years later. Zach is alive and returns home. The best part of the story is the two of them reconnecting and beginning a love relationship. Zach has PTSD with many psychological issues. David is loving, patient, accepting, and supporting. I loved that part of the story - the relationship development. The sex scenes were well done. I liked the feel good ending and the epilogue.

During the second half, at times I did not enjoy the drama. Too often Zach overreacted and thought he should end their relationship. Even though David told Zach he loved him and nothing about Zach’s past would ever bother him, Zach didn’t believe it or kept forgetting. Yes he had issues from his kidnaping and torture, but it was tiring to keep hearing that Zach believed no one could love him.

There are a lot of therapy type discussions. The most common sentence in the book was “Are you ok?” Everyone is always asking everyone else that question. The answer was usually yes and a couple times crying. The parents were wonderfully supportive of both David and Zach which was a nice part of the story.

I liked the way Zach’s five years of captivity was handled. The book starts with his rescue. Then Zach is telling or remembering what happened. Horrible things were done to him which stayed with me, but it could have been worse. I wouldn’t have wanted to be inside Zach’s head during his torture, not knowing if he would survive or be rescued. However the torture might be too much for sensitive readers.

The author has a good writing style. It’s a good story, just a little heavier than I was in the mood for.

The narrator Paul Morey was very good.

Genre: gay male romance.

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4 out of 5 stars
By RAEL.ORG on 02-17-18


A nice story, full of tenderness and people who take care with each others. I had a good time

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5 out of 5 stars
By Claire on 07-01-16

1 of the best books I've read in a long time

As soon as i started reading this book it gripped me. I don't usually like books including the same gender relationships. but this one was amazing and has changed my View and preconceptions of books like this. it's sweet tender and heartwarming. Even the sex scenes have so much more to them and just sex. I cried several times at this book. The book address pain and suffering and love and patience and friendship and kindness and so much more.... it was a fantastic read and I finished it quite quickly because I couldn't put it down.
The only gripe I have is how annoying the music is when the chapter ends and another begins. if this wasn't there it would have got full stars from me. The narrator is great it literally just was that annoying music that bothered me slightly.

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