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  • A Memoir
  • By: Joshua Cody
  • Narrated by: Edoardo Ballerini
  • Length: 6 hrs and 48 mins
  • Unabridged Audiobook
  • Release date: 06-27-13
  • Language: English
  • Publisher: Audible Studios
  • 3 out of 5 stars 3.1 (8 ratings)

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Publisher's Summary

Audie Award Finalist, Biography/Memoir, 2014
Joshua Cody, a brilliant young composer, was about to receive his PhD when he was diagnosed with an aggressive form of cancer. Facing a bone marrow transplant and full radiation, he charts his struggle: the fury, the tendency to self-destruction, and the ruthless grasping for life and sensation; the encounter with beautiful Ariel, who gives him cocaine and a blow job in a Manhattan restaurant following his first treatment; the detailed morphine fantasy complete with a bride called Valentina while, in reality, hospital staff are pinning him to his bed. Moving effortlessly between references to Don Giovanni and the Rolling Stones, Ezra Pound and Buffalo Bill, and studded with pages from his own diaries and hospital notebooks, [sic] is a mesmerizing, hallucinatory glimpse into a young man’s battle against disease and a celebration of art, language, music, and life.
©2011 Joshua Cody (P)2013 Audible, Inc.
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Critic Reviews

“The memoir of the year . . . a book in which the sentences swing into you like small, gleaming axes.” (New York Times)
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Customer Reviews

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1 out of 5 stars
By Richard Delman on 08-02-16


This book wasn’t for you, but who do you think might enjoy it more?

I have no idea. I don't think I know enough "intellectuals," to use an outdated word. I usually enjoy Mr. Ballerini's work, but he is beginning to pile up a small group of turkeys here. Oddly, or maybe not, a number of them seem to be about the history of Italy, a language that he speaks perfectly. His name is Italian. I can make no other sense of this.

What was most disappointing about Joshua Cody’s story?

I really don't understand what in hell Mr. Cody is talking about. It seems to be a jumble of ramblings that are disjointed, and if there is a plot, I couldn't find it. So, let's see: characters, plot, drama. No, no and no.

How did the narrator detract from the book?

The book is just not for me. I don't understand it, after several hours of trying to figure it out, I gave up. Why bother?

What reaction did this book spark in you? Anger, sadness, disappointment?

It's a waste of a credit, which is about $12, I think, and it was a waste of my time. I also feel that it is a waste of Mr. Ballerini's extraordinary talent, but I guess he didn't think so.

Any additional comments?


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5 out of 5 stars
By Victoria Wright on 07-06-14


I'm a bit mystified why so many people seem to be expending so much energy loathing this book. I found it to be poetic, horrifying, funny. His descriptions of living with, and nearly dying of, cancer, are hideous, and they reached me on a cellular level. So far, I and most of my circle have escaped this torment, but I know it's only a matter of time, and this author has spared us nothing in the way of what we can expect. That he went through it and survived is a miracle.

His observations--about family, love, sex, music, art, poetry--are lovely and informative and hilarious and excruciating and personal and yet universal. That said, I admit that once in a while I found it a bit self-involved, but what writing isn't? What good writer isn't? This one will learn to remove his visible self, I'm sure. He's too good not to.

I must say that I didn't read it--I listened to it, thanks to audible.com--and so I may have to give some extra credit to the brilliant Edoardo Ballerini, who read the book to me (and it felt that way--he read it to *me*). My advice is to listen to this book. Don't read it. Let it happen in your ears.

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