With My Eyes Wide Open

  • by Brian "Head" Welch
  • Narrated by Brian "Head" Welch
  • 6 hrs and 5 mins
  • Unabridged Audiobook

Publisher's Summary

He left KoRn to help himself. He went back to help others. And along the way, he nearly lost everything.
A life-changing spiritual awakening freed Brian "Head" Welch from a stranglehold of drugs and alcohol and prompted him to leave the highly successful nu-metal band KoRn in 2005. What followed was a decade-long trial by fire, from the perils of fathering a teen lost in depression and self-mutilation to the harsh realities of playing solo and surviving the shattering betrayal of a trusted friend. In this intensely inspiring redemption saga, perhaps most inspiring is Brian's radical decision to rejoin KoRn and reconcile with the tribe of people he once considered family in the metal music scene.
Brian returned to his musical roots with a clear head and a devoted heart. Though his story is wild, hilarious, and deeply poignant, the message is simple: God will love you into the freedom of being yourself as long as you keep the relationship going and never, ever quit.


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A seriously phenomenal book!

What a brave, authentic, honest guy Brian is for writing this. Funny, I was never a big Korn fan back in the day. As a Gen X'er, I loved alternative rock but never had a fondness for the real hard metal stuff, so I never even knew the story of Brian Welch. I am so glad I decided to take a chance on this book. I've only been a Christian for about 7 years now, and my fiancé is about to get out of prison after a 13 year sentence for heroin-addicted crimes. He is clean, sober, and also a devout Christian now. His artistic medium is writing and novels, but he doesn't write conventional feel-good Christian stories. His book are about the Mafia, war, drug dealers, etc. He gave his life to Christ, and his faith is strong and true. Yet as he's getting ready for re-entry and we're working on a plan to publish his books, I've been struggling with whether or not it's "right" for us to be non-traditional and unconventional in our faith through these novels. Brian's story, his love for his daughter, his incredible prayers and most of all, his understanding of who God made him to be really helped me to finally come to terms about my role in our marriage and business endeavors. What a Godsend this book is! I feel so much more confident, joyful (and relieved!) about my hubby-to-be's novels and genres. This has been a real struggle for me. How does someone who doesn't fit the churchy "mold" try to fit into the ideal? Brian's story helped me to see that there IS no ideal. Every believer is ideal. You fight your own demons, you strengthen your own faith, you create your own personal relationship with Christ, and you follow your own path based on your unique gifts, talents and circumstances that the Good Lord gave us. All of it is good! My favorite line of the whole book is, "I was completely floored and humbled, and I sat there in my car in tears at the thought of how good, non-religious and non-traditional God's wild ways are." Love it. Brian's daughter is gorgeous both inside and out, he is an amazing father, and he is going to continue to do unbelievable things for Jesus. I'll be praying for the two of them, and will move forward confident now that I will be an awesome wife to a husband who is also going to do great things and reach out to an audience in a wild, non-traditional and unconventional manner. I can't wait to download Brian's first book and buy his album. His narration was terrific and added authenticity to the writing -- I listened to this audiobook straight through with no stops. Truly recommend!!
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- Maria


I loved this audio book. It's the second audio of Brian's that I've listened to this year. The passion and love in his voice gives this book even more life.. I love how real and honest he is about his story. His vulnerability is what will set people free.
It also opened my eyes even more to broken people. How God loves and pursues ALL of us. I remember when I was not a Christian, my teen daughter coming home with her first Korn CD. I broke it and threw it in the trash and cursed them. Ha! Look at who just spoke life to me... Brian Welch, of Korn. I am now a Christian and attend Fuse Church in Knoxville, Tn. I've heard amazing things about Brian since I first met Jesus. Evidently, he has visited my church a few times and has friends there. He's the real deal.
Thank you, Brian, for opening my eyes. I love your story. Angee
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- Jeff S.

Book Details

  • Release Date: 05-17-2016
  • Publisher: Thomas Nelson Publishers