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Unable to commit to his fiancée of nearly four years - and with no clear understanding of what’s holding him back - Andrew McCarthy finds himself at a crossroads, plagued by doubts that have clung to him for a lifetime. Something in his character has kept him always at a distance, preventing him from giving himself wholeheartedly to the woman he loves and from becoming the father that he knows his children deserve. So before he loses everything he cares about, Andrew sets out to look for answers.
Hobbling up the treacherous slopes of Mt. Kilimanjaro, dodging gregarious passengers aboard an Amazonian riverboat, and trudging through dense Costa Rican rain forests - Andrew takes us on exotic trips to some of the world’s most beautiful places, but his real journey is one of the spirit. On his soul-searching voyages, Andrew traces the path from his New Jersey roots, where acting saved his life - and early fame almost took it away - to his transformation into a leading travel writer. He faces the real costs of his early success and lays bare the evolving nature of his relationships with women. He explores a strained bond with his father, and how this complex dynamic shapes his own identity as a parent. Andrew charts his journey from ambivalence to confidence, from infidelity and recklessness to acceptance and a deeper understanding of the internal conflicts of his life.
A gifted writer with an unsparing eye, Andrew relishes bizarre encounters with the characters whom he encounters, allowing them to challenge him in unexpected ways. He gets into peculiar, even dangerous situations that put him to the test - with mixed results. Disarmingly likable, Andrew is open, honest, and authentic, and what emerges is an intimate memoir of self-discovery and an unforgettable love song to the woman who would be his wife.
©2012 Andrew McCarthy (P)2012 Brilliance Audio, Inc.
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By Dina on 10-01-12

A Real Winner!

This book has everything. Great writing. A cohesive tale. Depth. Really good editing. Terrific narration. Andrew McCarthy is flawed, like the rest of us, and he isn't afraid to show his vulnerability. He is a terrific storyteller and a fabulous wordsmith. Bravo.

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By Aaron on 06-06-13

boring

Three hours in and can't listen to any more. These stories just aren't interesting to me. I wanted to stop before two hours but thought I would give it another hour, it has got to get better, but it didn't.

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3 of 3 people found this review helpful

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