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Michelle Stevens has a photo of the exact moment her childhood was stolen from her: She's only eight years old, posing for her mother's boyfriend, Gary Lundquist - an elementary school teacher, neighborhood stalwart, and brutal pedophile. Later that night Gary locks Michelle in a cage, tortures her repeatedly, and uses her to quench his voracious and deviant sexual whims. Little does she know that this will become her new reality for the next six years.
Michelle can also pinpoint the moment she reconstituted the splintered pieces of her life: She's in cap and gown, receiving her PhD in psychology - and the university's award for best dissertation.
The distance between these two points is the improbable journey from torture, loss, and mental illness to healing, recovery, and triumph that is Michelle's powerful memoir, Scared Selfless.
Michelle suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder, anxiety, and depression and made multiple suicide attempts. She also developed multiple personalities. There was "Chelsey", the rebellious teenager; "Viscous", a tween with homicidal rage; and "Sarah", a sweet little girl who brought her teddy bear on a first date.
In this harrowing tale, Michelle, who was inspired to help others heal by becoming a psychotherapist, sheds light on the all-too-real threat of child sexual abuse, its subsequent psychological effects, and the best methods for victims to overcome their ordeals and, ultimately, thrive. Scared Selfless is both an examination of the extraordinary feats of the mind that are possible in the face of horrific trauma as well as Michelle's courageous testament to their power.
©2017 Michelle Stevens (P)2017 Penguin Audio
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"A riveting memoir that takes readers on a roller coaster ride from the depths of hell to triumphant success." (Dave Pelzer, author of A Child Called "It")
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By Virginia on 03-30-17

Horrifically Needed (Some Stories Need To Be Told)

This is one of those true stories that is so sadistic, disgusting, sad, and horrifying that it is hard to finish, but out of respect for Michelle Stevens I made myself listen.
Stories I have heard before of childhood molestation and physical abuse (that no one should ever have to endure) can not touch her heart wrenching tale. Made a sex slave to her piece of %$!* step father by the age of eight and not protected or even noticed by her mother, young Michelle endured emotional brain washing, physical, sexual, and mental abuse that should have killed her and would have killed most adults that I know. No teacher (stories written and pictures drawn), no school counselor (acting outrageously out of her normal character), no doctor (she almost bled to death from a botched at home forced abortion), or family member (she and her mother were isolated ) ever read the signs (multiple or split personality disorder) that even Michelle says she displayed, but I for one am thankful Michelle has told her story because in turn I will be very aware of the signs that children might show who are being abused. I could go into further details that go so far out that they almost become to hard to believe, but I will just finish by saying this is a well written and great narration of horrifically but absolutely needed work. She speaks from not only experience, but from education as well having fought her own demons to become a teacher and therapist and now is helping others who have gone through their own hell on earth. Some stories just need and deserve to be told.

Btw, I have to add that because of the material, you must be aware of young ears that may be in hearing distance when you are listen.

And...Thats My two cents worth

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By Brianne on 03-30-17

Opens Your Eyes

Opens your eyes to the taboo world of child molestation and prostitution and it's dire effects on the human psyche as an adult. The book is read by the author which helps give even more emotion to the book.

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3 of 3 people found this review helpful

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By D. Davies on 08-02-17

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As harrowing as this book is to listen to at times it is also a source of hope, healing and unfathomable courage. Everything you think you know about MPD will be replaced with real knowledge from one who knows.

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By Kathst on 04-16-17


you will learn so much from this lady . I will always remember her bravery and utter honesty. I have listened to over 150 books on here and this lady moved me beyond words with her intelligence, humour and utter determination not too let the abuser win. I will carry respect throughout my life for this author. She should be very proud of what she has achieved

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