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Publisher's Summary

Winner of the PEN/Ackerley Prize 2013
At 14, Richard Holloway left his home in the Vale of Leven, north of Glasgow, and travelled hundreds of miles to be educated and trained for the priesthood by a religious order in an English monastery. By 25, he had been ordained and was working in the slums of Glasgow. Throughout the following 40 years, Richard touched the lives of many people in the Church and in the wider community. But behind his confident public face lay a restless, unquiet heart and a constantly searching mind.
Richard Holloway reads his number two Sunday Times best-selling memoir with honesty, emotion, and great character. It was directed by Matt Thompson with music by Capella Nova.
©2012 Richard Holloway (P)2012 Canongate Books Ltd
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Critic Reviews

“A wonderfully honest and deeply moving reflection on the nature of doubt, saintly almost in its modesty - though Holloway might not like my saying so. A breath of fresh doubt that so many of us need, whether believer or nonbeliever, and I'm both.” (MICHAEL MORPURGO)
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5 out of 5 stars
By polly on 01-13-17

An honest and moving memoir

An exceptional book. If you are interested in Anglo Catholicism and the dreadful knots and schisms it has experienced over the last thirty or forty years, Richard Holloway's account of his life within the church and the politics of religion is fascinating.

The tragedy of the 1998 Lambeth Conference, the decisions and divisions which resulted from that date, are laid bare and the church is seen in all its arrogance.

Richard Holloway reads his own book bravely, sings and recites poetry - lays himself bare to the reader/listener.

For anyone who has questioned his/her own faith, admired religious men and women for their dedication but worried about whether they also have crises of faith along the way, for believers and sceptics alike, this book illustrates and discusses the decisions we make in life and the trials and consequences we inevitably face.

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5 out of 5 stars
By Kirstine on 03-30-18

An admirable man’s struggle with his faith

In his own words Richard Holloway relates the story of his life from a humble background in the Vale of Leven in the West of Scotland through different callings both here and abroad to his final appointment as Primus of the Episcopal church in Scotland.

It is a highly personal story as he tells of his innermost feelings with no holds barred. I am sorry to hear of how tormented he has been by his struggles over his religious faith, but interested how his beliefs have evolved and mellowed over his life. He stands out as a humane and caring man who has dedicated his life to helping others, not least LGBT community for whom he has been a courageous supporter, and for others also shunned by religious people who stick rigidly to what they see as the immutable doctrines of faith as set down in the bible. As a non-believer I cheer his arguments demonstrating the irrationality and illogicality of some of these doctrines, however his questioning of these tenets of faith often got him in hot water and released some vicious responses that I imagine would have appalled Jesus

A most interesting and thought-provoking book for both those with and without religious faith.

Read excellently (and at times sung!) by the author the narrative seems even more personal and moving.

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