In the Water They Can't See You Cry

  • by Amanda Beard, Rebecca Paley
  • Narrated by Tavia Gilbert
  • 8 hrs and 10 mins
  • Unabridged Audiobook

Publisher's Summary

At the tender age of 14, Amanda Beard walked onto the pool deck at the Atlanta Olympics carrying her teddy bear, Harold, and left with two silvers and a gold medal. She competed in three more Olympic games, winning a total of seven medals, and enjoyed a lucrative modeling career on the side. At one point, she was the most downloaded female athlete on the Internet. Yet despite her astonishing career and sex-symbol status, Amanda felt unworthy of all her success. Unaware that she was suffering from clinical depression, she hid the pain beneath a megawatt smile. With no other outlet for her feelings besides the pool, Amanda expressed her emotions through self-destructive behavior. In her late teens and 20s, she became bulimic, abused drugs and alcohol, and started cutting herself. Her low self-esteem led to toxic relationships with high-profile men in the sports world. No one, not even her own parents and friends, knew about the turmoil she was going through. Only when she met her future husband, who discovered her cutting herself, did Amanda realize she needed help.
Through her renewed faith in herself; the love of her family; and finally the birth of her baby boy, Blaise, Amanda has transformed her life. In this book, she speaks frankly about her struggles with depression, the pressures to be thin, and the unhealthy relationships she confused for love. In the Water They Can't See You Cry is a raw, compelling story of a woman who gained the strength to live as bravely out of the water as she did in it.


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Customer Reviews

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I applaud Amanda - but her editor's were lame

What would have made In the Water They Can't See You Cry better?

If it was told instead of chronogoligal order, but in life moments. 1. Start to swimming. 2. Parent's divorce and utter lack of ability to parent through their own suffering 3. Olympics all of them at the same time 4. College life 5. Bad bad relationships and how they sucked the life out of me.In the end this book was so difficult to get through. Probably much like Amanda's teenage/college life seemed to be. I was hoping she would find resolve, peace, clarity. 90% of the book I experienced anxiety and the last 10% seemed to be "It's all ok now, just get some therapy, sweep it under the rug, and find a good man." It would have been a much better book if there were more points of refection. Some tools learned in therapy. How to find a good therapist. bla bla bla. I'm not an editor, but this book was a very long diary entry.

How could the performance have been better?

I would have like to hear it from Amanda.

What reaction did this book spark in you? Anger, sadness, disappointment?

Empathy and then anger. The book seemed so flip when discussing her recovery compared to the pages and pages we had to endure with her crappy relationship.

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- Heather

Good Story. Don't give up!

Is there anything you would change about this book?

No, it was pretty entertaining and I enjoyed the whole story.

What was one of the most memorable moments of In the Water They Can't See You Cry?

I liked how "normal girl" she wanted to be and that swimming has always been fun to her even if there is a lot of pressure put on her throughout the years.

Did In the Water They Can't See You Cry inspire you to do anything?

Makes me want to swim again. I like the fact that she still competes and is a pro even as a mom. I am only a couple years younger than her and a mom too and haven't swam in a long time. She has inspired me to want to get a gym membership sometime and to swim regularly even though I am not the size I once was when I used to swim.

Any additional comments?

I think listening to her relationships stories before meeting her husband was so sad and painful. The fact that she stuck in her first relationships for so long and didn't try to get out of that hurt me to listen to. I did however love that even though she had some family issues, her family were always there supporting her together regardless of the divorce of her parents. I think that is rare, but I did feel sad for her not really knowing reasons. I can't wait to see her swim in a couple of weeks at the Olympics in Rio!!!!!! I have been watching her since her first Olympics!

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- Justice Pirate "Abolitionist, Wife, Mother, photographer, & quilter"

Book Details

  • Release Date: 04-16-2012
  • Publisher: Tantor Audio