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An odyssey of family, heartbreak, violence, punk rock, brokenness, broke-ness, sex, love, loss, drinking, drinking, drinking, and an unlikely savior: distance running.
A misfit kid at the best of times, Mishka Shubaly had his world shattered when, in a 24-hour span in 1992, he survived a mass shooting on his school's campus then learned that his parents were getting divorced. His father, a prominent rocket scientist, abandoned the family, and their home was lost to foreclosure. Shubaly swore to avenge the wrongs against his mother but instead plunged into a magnificently toxic love affair with alcohol.
Almost two decades later, Shubaly's life changed again when a fateful five-mile run after a bar fight inspired him to clean up his life. And when he finally reconnected with his estranged father, he discovered the story of his childhood was radically different from what he thought he knew.
In this fiercely honest, emotional, and self-laceratingly witty book, Shubaly relives his mistakes, misfortunes, and infrequent good decisions: the disastrous events that fractured his life; his incendiary romances; his hot-and-cold career as a rock musician; meeting his newborn nephew while out of his gourd on cough syrup. I Swear I'll Make It Up to You is an apology for choices Shubaly never thought he'd live long enough to regret, a journey so far down the low road that it took him years of running to claw his way back.
©2016 Mishka Shubaly (P)2016 Blackstone Audio, Inc.
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By Jennifer Thurman on 03-18-16

Great book!

I loved this book. It was honest when being honest probably wasn't easy. There was so much I could relate to. I recommend it to anyone who struggles with being a flawed human.

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By Kristin on 04-20-16

Life changing

This book makes you hope and believe that life can change.... and gives us insight into how to change it.

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By Alistair on 02-08-17

Starts Strong - but eventually the running gets dreary

Mishka writes well and his story is an interesting one... to a point.
The first 2/3rds of the book are great, a fascinating story off one mans war with the world, his father and himself. His childhood and drinking days are fascinating and well told.
But then he starts running. And running. And talking about running. And the book just drags. I hate to say it as I loved Mishka when introduced to him through the Doug Stanhope podcast and he has had an interesting and in places heart breaking life - but I wouldn't recommend this book. The first 2/3rds yes. But I can't bear to finish it and hear any more about long distance running (gave up 1.45hrs remaining)

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By Amazon Customer on 10-26-16

depressing bliss

hard to listen to. as it should be. do it. it's painful and beautiful and terrifying

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By Sharon on 04-27-16

A book abr mistakes, redemption and self discovery

I really enjoyed this book. I've listened to all of Mishka's kindle singles and, while this covers the same territory, it is rarely repetitive. He is brutally honest, never aims to be inspiring but manages it anyway, and is likeable despite himself. I love a memoir read my the author and his voice is just perfect for this, gravely and distinctive.

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