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Publisher's Summary

From Cat Marnell, "New York's enfant terrible" (The Telegraph), a candid and darkly humorous memoir of prescription drug addiction and self-sabotage, set in the glamorous world of fashion magazines and downtown nightclubs.
At 26 Cat Marnell was an associate beauty editor at Lucky, one of the top fashion magazines in America - and that's all most people knew about her. But she hid a secret life. She was a prescription drug addict. She was also a "doctor shopper" who manipulated Upper East Side psychiatrists for pills, pills, and more pills; a lonely bulimic who spent hundreds of dollars a week on binge foods; a promiscuous party girl who danced barefoot on banquets; a weepy and hallucination-prone insomniac who would take anything - anything - to sleep.
This is a tale of self-loathing, self-sabotage, and, yes, self-tanner. It begins at a posh New England prep school - and with a prescription for attention deficit disorder medication Ritalin. It continues to New York, where we follow Marnell's amphetamine-fueled rise from intern to editor through the beauty departments of NYLON, Teen Vogue, Glamour, and Lucky. We see her fight between ambition and addiction and how, inevitably, her disease threatens everything she worked so hard to achieve.
From the Conde Nast building (where she rides the elevator alongside Anna Wintour) to seedy nightclubs, from doctors' offices and mental hospitals, Marnell shows - like no one else can - what it is like to live in the wild, chaotic, often sinister world of a young female addict who can't say no.
Combining lightning-rod subject matter and bold literary aspirations, How to Murder Your Life is mesmerizing, revelatory, and necessary.
©2017 Cat Marnell (P)2017 Simon & Schuster, Inc.
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4 out of 5 stars
By Taylor on 03-14-17

nice book

Every time she does her screaming voice I want to stab myself in the ears with a butter knife. Otherwise pretty good.

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5 out of 5 stars
By Laura on 02-08-17


A fan of Marnell's work for some time, I was eager for the arrival of this book! I couldn't decided if I should get the hard copy or go audio book, as sometimes audio book is easier for commuting and working. Once I found out that she is the narrator, I decided on starting here. I plan on reading the prose in print, as well. She's a great writer and crafts her story with great talent. It flows well, her prose are witty and delicate and casual, and at times, flippant- when appropriate. She is a GREAT narrator (which is key for audio book). Her words are in her own voice and her intonation and cadence keep you listening. I wish there was more to listen to!! Looking forward to reading it and ingesting her copy on paper. A great insight on a very particular New York scene. Knowing many of the characters personally (though I don't know cat), her descriptions are spot on. She slices up so many layers but brings it all together in the end. I love when a story has layers, don't you? New York is a lonely place.

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