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Not long before her 50th birthday, Mackenzie Phillips walked into Los Angeles International Airport. She was on her way to a reunion of One Day at a Time, the hugely popular 70s sitcom on which she once starred as the lovable rebel Julie Cooper. Within minutes, Mackenzie was in handcuffs, arrested for possession of cocaine and heroin. Born into rock and roll royalty, Mackenzie grew up in an all-access kingdom of hippie freedom and heroin cool. It was a kingdom over which her father, the legendary John Phillips of The Mamas & the Papas, presided, often in absentia, a spellbinding, visionary phantom.
When Mackenzie was a teenager, Hollywood and the world took notice of the charming, talented, precocious child actor after her star-making turn in American Graffiti. As a young woman, she joined the nonstop party in the hedonistic pleasure dome her father created for himself and his fellow revelers, and a rapt TV audience watched as Julie Cooper wasted away before their eyes.
By the time Mackenzie discovered how deep and dark her father's trip was going, it was too late. And as an adult, she has paid dearly for a lifetime of excess, working tirelessly to reconcile a wonderful, terrible past in which she succumbed to the power of addiction and the pull of her magnetic father.
As her astounding, outrageous, and often tender life story unfolds, Phillips overcomes seemingly impossible obstacles again and again, and journeys toward redemption and peace. By exposing the shadows and secrets of the past to the light of day, the star who turned up High on Arrival has finally come back down to earth - to stay.
©2009 Shane's Mom, Inc (P)2009 Simon & Schuster
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By Missye on 10-11-09

Raw and Honest

Women like Mackenzie, Tatum, Valerie and Maureen I'd always wanted as friends, maybe because each have a single struggle tantamount in their lives I've struggled with all four of: drugs, weight issues, special needs, abandonment and parental issues. I'm not famous enough to do my own memoir, but came away with from each knowing that, if they hold hope for themselves, I can for me, too.

Mac's life didn't make me cry more so than it made me think of how my own family wouldn't talk about the taboos they know about, but won't discuss. Although I don't have holes in my memories like Mac does and have dark secrets like she divulges here--my dad was a bigot to whites and being born with albinism, talk about God slapping a does of reality upside his head with that idiocy of his--I'm glad she talked about it and opened herself to the dark side of it all. I think she did it for her son's welfare more so than for her own, and she desperately, imploringly didn't want him to travel the road she had to to get here. I think it's a disgrace her stepmoms Michelle and Genevieve think Mackenzie's lying to promote a book; no one makes up something like this for the sake of selling a book. And in her drug-soaked mind, who's to say these things didn't happen? And if they say it didn't happen, why are they the only two saying so? Where're the others? IOW, this is either a lie worthy of an Oscar-winning performance. . .or she's telling the truth.

Four stars b/c of the abridgment constraints, but overall, a solid read and backstory the E! True Hollywood Story doesn't fill in or give justice.

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By Tracy on 06-23-15


Would you try another book from Mackenzie Phillips and/or Mackenzie Phillips?

Probably not. She truly has a story to tell ... no doubt about that. But she seemed, I dunno ... self absorbed. Maybe that's simply unavoidable given the subject matter.

Would you ever listen to anything by Mackenzie Phillips again?

Nah. I feel like I know all I need to know about Mac at this point.

What didn’t you like about Mackenzie Phillips’s performance?

I had a little trouble with the raspy, smoker/coffee sounding voice.

You didn’t love this book... but did it have any redeeming qualities?

It did have redeeming qualities. For one thing, this story clearly illustrates the severe pitfalls of doing drugs over a long period of time. It absolutely alters the brain and its function. Would this man have incested his daughter if his brain had been functioning properly? No. Drugs change the way people think and function. Perhaps this is a cautionary tale about one man who made drugs his way of life and of the consequences of that lifestyle, which were truly staggering in his case. Sadly, he never had the wherewithal to see just how staggering they were or how much he hurt his daughter. It's sad and sick.

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