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The former middle-distance Olympic runner and high-end escort speaks out for the first time about her battle with mental illness and how mania controlled and compelled her in competition but also in life. This is a heartbreakingly honest yet hopeful memoir reminiscent of Manic, Electroboy, and An Unquiet Mind.
During the 1990s three-time Olympian Suzy Favor Hamilton was the darling of American track and field. An outstanding runner, a major sports-apparel spokesperson, and a happily married wife, she was the model for an active, healthy, and wholesome life. But her perfect facade masked a dark truth: manic depression and bipolar disorder that drove her obsession to perform and win. For years after leaving the track, Suzy wrestled with her condition as well as the loss of a close friend, conflicted feelings about motherhood and her marriage, and lingering shame about her athletic career. After a misdiagnosis and a recommendation for medication that only exacerbated her mania and made her hypersexual, Suzy embarked on a new path and assumed a new identity. Fueled by a newfound confidence, a feeling of strength, and independence and a desire she couldn't tamp down, she became a high-priced escort in Las Vegas, working as "Kelly".
But Suzy could not keep her double life a secret forever. When it was eventually exposed, it sent her into a reckless suicidal period where the only option seemed out. Finally, with the help of her devoted husband, Suzy got the proper medical help she needed. In this startling, frank memoir, she recounts the journey to outrun her demons, revealing how a woman used to physically controlling her body learned to come to terms with her unstable mind.
©2015 Suzy Favor Hamilton (P)2015 HarperCollins Publishers
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5 out of 5 stars
By Allison on 05-03-16

Brave, Powerful & Compelling

Well written and inspiring, Suzy Favor Hamilton shares her story in a way that makes you want to listen non stop.

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5 out of 5 stars
By Julie Young on 02-26-16

Wisconsin girl

Being from Wisconsin and knowing of Suzy over the years with her running ability and then about her being an escort it intrigued me to read/listen to this book to see why. Sad to find out that all along she had bipolar disease and I am sure that is why she never went anywhere in the Olympics...such as shame. Hope she can help a lot of people with her story. Couldn't turn the book off wanted to keep listening to see what was next. A must read book or listen.

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3 out of 5 stars
By Bee on 03-11-17

Strange mixture

Mixture of potntially fascinating insight into highl level competition, bi polar and the life of an escort and truly tedious details of everyday life. The writing isn't that great but I think the bland narration which gives no indication oh the highs the writer says she felt made it worse. The prologue and epilogue are read by suzy hamilton and it might have been better if she had read the whole book as she sounds more animated. H

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4 out of 5 stars
By Chantelle Nichols on 12-06-15

What a bizarre story. Very interesting.

Sometimes hard to process the lack of remorse, even as somebody with a bipolar parent.

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4 out of 5 stars
By Mrs on 09-27-16

Great story!

Enjoyed this story VERY much but would have preferred to have been listening to the author reading it rather than what sounded like the narrator of Desperate Housewives.

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