Faith Under Fire

  • by Roger Benimoff, Eve Conant
  • Narrated by Jonah Cummings
  • 7 hrs and 42 mins
  • Unabridged Audiobook

Publisher's Summary

“Running away from God doesn't work. I had tried.” -Roger Benimoff
As he left for his second tour of duty as an Army chaplain in Iraq, Roger Benimoff noted in his journal: I am excited and I am scared. I am on fire for God...He is my hope, strength, and focus.
But not long after returning to Iraq, the burdens of his job - the memorial services for soldiers killed in action, the therapy sessions after contact with the enemy, the perilous excursions “outside the wire” while under enemy fire - began to overwhelm him. Amid the dust, heat, and blood of Iraq, Benimoff felt the pillar of strength he'd always relied on to hold him up - his faith in God - begin to crumble.
Unable to make sense of the senseless, Benimoff turned to his journal. What did it mean to believe in a God who would allow the utter horror and injustice of war? Did He want these brave young men and women to die? In his darkest moment, Benimoff wrote: Why am I so angry? I do not want anything to do with God. I am sick of religion. It is a crutch for the weak.
Benimoff's spiritual crisis heightened upon his return home to Fort Carson, Colorado. He withdrew emotionally from wife and sons, creating tensions that threatened to shatter the family. He was assigned to work at Walter Reed Army Medical Center, where he counseled returning soldiers suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder–until he was diagnosed himself with PTSD.
Finding himself in the role of patient rather than caregiver, connecting as an equal with his fellow sufferers, and revisiting scriptural readings that once again rang with meaning and truth, he began his most decisive battle: for the love of his family and for the chance to once again open his heart to the healing grace of God.
Intimate and powerful, drawing on Benimoff's and his wife's journals, Faith Under Fire chronicles a spiritual struggle through war, loss, and the hard process of learning to believe again.


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An eye and heart opener!!

If you could sum up Faith Under Fire in three words, what would they be?

Enlightening, Educational, Insiring

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This book was extremely challenging. Roger explored areas where a number of pastors/chaplains have been scared to approach. Here was a man that came to the end of himself and did not find God there to catch him, or so he believed. He went on his own journey to discover grace in its most purest form.I have never read nor heard anything so frank about losing and regaining your faith. It was refreshing to hear his challenges and to see that it is ok to not always have it together.

He communicates just how important it is to look after yourself, to have regular supervision. Yet even with these things in place, you will still need to keep a handle on your own humanity, being aware of your health and well being.

o This book opened my eyes to the war, Roger was definitely correct about the ignorance that people "at home" have, about what actually goes on in war zones. My awareness of war has heightened, especially leading up to Anzac day.

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- Tegan

Great book for all care givers.

Great book if we could all learn from his mistakes and take care of ourselves.
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- Donald

Book Details

  • Release Date: 03-02-2012
  • Publisher: Audible Studios