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Publisher's Summary

Seventeen-year-old Elena is vanishing. Every day means renewed determination, so every day means fewer calories. This is the story of a girl whose armor against anxiety becomes artillery against herself as she battles on both sides of a lose-lose war in a struggle with anorexia.
Told entirely from Elena's perspective over a five-year period and cowritten with her mother, award-winning author Clare B. Dunkle, Elena's memoir is a fascinating and intimate look at a deadly disease and a must-listen for anyone who knows someone suffering from an eating disorder.
©2015 Elena and Clare B. Dunkle (P)2015 Audible, Inc.
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5 out of 5 stars
By Susie on 09-16-15

Eaten from Within

Elena Dunkle's memoir re-lives her struggle with anorexia, when it was a separate force consuming her, a demon working against her. This might be the truest portrait of this disorder out there.

She gives a vivid account of the state of mind that anyone with psychological problems, from depression to addiction, can recognize, highlighting the inner voice that constantly counteracts any acknowledgement, any progress toward a healthy mindset. It's a harrowing story that gives you a clear understanding of the disease eating up a victim.

When Elena finally starts to come around, she is again, so honest and so accurate, that you know that recovery is not a straightforward path, it will be a lifetime's work.

The extraordinary Lauren Fortgang does a bang-up job as narrator. She makes it nearly a dramatization, giving the memoir an extra layer of meaning.

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5 out of 5 stars
By The Mays on 07-18-17

So powerful

This honest memoir is heart wrenching and beautifully written. What Elena and her family went through was beyond any words I could write in a review. Anorexia steals the lives of so many, and almost stole Elena's. Regardless of whether you or a loved one has battled (or is battling) anorexia or if you just want to know what it's like from the inside this is absolutely worth a credit. If you love the book as I did, check out Hope and Other Luxuries by Clare B Dunkle and Elena Dunkle for the story of Elena's mother, Clare's battle to save Elena from the monster that is anorexia.
Lauren Fortgang is an incredible narrator who I have enjoyed listening to on this and many other books before. She always gives an amazing performance.
Happy listening!

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4 out of 5 stars
By Globetrotter on 03-12-18

Feels authentic

This book felt like a very honest account of a long lasting struggle with ED. The narration was very good as well. Even a few aha moments during the account of therapy sessions towards the end.

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3 out of 5 stars
By Simon on 12-17-17

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Before listening to this book it helps to listen to her mother’s memoir hope and other luxuries it helps provide a timeline and give the full picture, both sides of the story. Both books are worth reading.

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5 out of 5 stars
By Anonymous User on 07-12-18

A truly unique story

I loved every second of this beautiful story, so very touching. By far one of my favourite books.

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5 out of 5 stars
By Anonymous User on 10-26-17

My favourite eating disorder books

This book and her mums together make up the best ED books I've ever read and I've read nearly all of them. Well worth investing in both elena vanishing and her mums hope and other luxuries.

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