Regular price: $19.95

Free with 30-day trial
Membership details Membership details
  • A 30-day trial plus your first audiobook, free
  • 1 credit/month after trial – good for any book, any price
  • Easy exchanges – swap any book you don’t love
  • Keep your audiobooks, even if you cancel
  • After your trial, Audible is just $14.95/month
Select or Add a new payment method

Buy Now with 1 Credit

By confirming your purchase, you agree to Audible's Conditions of Use and Amazon's Privacy Notice. Taxes where applicable.

Buy Now for $19.95

Pay using card ending in
By confirming your purchase, you agree to Audible's Conditions of Use and Amazon's Privacy Notice. Taxes where applicable.

Publisher's Summary

Seventeen-year-old Elena is vanishing. Every day means renewed determination, so every day means fewer calories. This is the story of a girl whose armor against anxiety becomes artillery against herself as she battles on both sides of a lose-lose war in a struggle with anorexia.
Told entirely from Elena's perspective over a five-year period and cowritten with her mother, award-winning author Clare B. Dunkle, Elena's memoir is a fascinating and intimate look at a deadly disease and a must-listen for anyone who knows someone suffering from an eating disorder.
©2015 Elena and Clare B. Dunkle (P)2015 Audible, Inc.
Show More Show Less

Customer Reviews

Most Helpful

By Susie on 09-16-15

Eaten from Within

Elena Dunkle's memoir re-lives her struggle with anorexia, when it was a separate force consuming her, a demon working against her. This might be the truest portrait of this disorder out there.

She gives a vivid account of the state of mind that anyone with psychological problems, from depression to addiction, can recognize, highlighting the inner voice that constantly counteracts any acknowledgement, any progress toward a healthy mindset. It's a harrowing story that gives you a clear understanding of the disease eating up a victim.

When Elena finally starts to come around, she is again, so honest and so accurate, that you know that recovery is not a straightforward path, it will be a lifetime's work.

The extraordinary Lauren Fortgang does a bang-up job as narrator. She makes it nearly a dramatization, giving the memoir an extra layer of meaning.

Read More Hide me

7 of 9 people found this review helpful


By Tabitha on 07-31-17

Says the voice in my head

Hate to complain about an anorexia memoir but have to be honest. The writing lacks. Too much repetitive inner monologue that doesn't serve the story or convey any pertinent emotion. Story is very vague and uninteresting. The phrase "says the voice in my head" every other sentence. We get it, you're trying to convey inner conflict but don't have the writing tools to show instead of tell. Heartbreaking story, and nothing against the subject.

Read More Hide me

1 of 1 people found this review helpful

See all Reviews

Customer Reviews

Most Helpful

By Anonymous User on 10-26-17

My favourite eating disorder books

This book and her mums together make up the best ED books I've ever read and I've read nearly all of them. Well worth investing in both elena vanishing and her mums hope and other luxuries.

Read More Hide me

By Emily Martin on 09-11-17

Good performance, okay book

Book gets somewhat confusing through out due to large time jumps. Could be more concise.

Read More Hide me
See all Reviews