• Down the Rabbit Hole

  • Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny
  • By: Holly Madison
  • Narrated by: Holly Madison
  • Length: 10 hrs and 51 mins
  • Unabridged Audiobook
  • Release date: 06-23-15
  • Language: English
  • Publisher: HarperAudio
  • 4.5 out of 5 stars 4.3 (7,473 ratings)

Regular price: $30.79

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Publisher's Summary

The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion - and finally the secret truth about the man who holds the key - from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef's former number-one girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.
A spontaneous decision at age 21 transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner's number-one girlfriend. But like Alice's journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairy tale life inside the Playboy Mansion - including A-list celebrity parties and her own number-one-rated television show for four years - quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious mansion wasn't a dream at all - and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub, contemplating suicide.
But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.
In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.
With great courage Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams - and finding the life we deserve.
©2015 Holly Madison (P)2015 HarperCollins Publishers
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5 out of 5 stars
By Brianna Gallagher on 06-24-15

"Mean girls", magicians, mansions, and more!

During the early 2000s my best friend and I (freshly out of high school) idolized The Girls Next Door. We bought the simultaneously sexy and wholesome act hook, line, and sinker. Although one got the feeling it wasn't perpetual sunshine and roses, it's clear life at the mansion was darker than it seemed.

Now that I'm approaching 30, this tell-all journey of personal mistakes and self discovery resonates with me on a different level. Despite her fame, and perhaps infamy, Holly's relatable struggles in her romantic and professional lives provided a humorous but thoughtful expose fraught with "mean girls", magicians, mansions, and more.

Holly is charming, although occasionally awkward in her phrasing, but decidedly mature and candid. Her "Alice in Wonderland" theme is nicely appointed by well chosen quotes at the begin of each chapter. This is the first memoir I've ever read, but I'm very glad I did. All together very interesting, and even slightly nostalgic.

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5 out of 5 stars
By MaiduCali on 06-25-15

Holly knows how to tell a story

I decided to pick this book only because I found the whole thing odd. But honestly, her story telling skills and performance make this audible book very enjoyable. While I don't know whether the whole story is true, I find that the book was entertaining. This book is meant to be an audio book.

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4 out of 5 stars
By Elaine Adu-Poku on 03-14-18

Engaging and funny

The Girls of the Playboy Mansion (as the show was known in the UK) was a guilty pleasure of mine, and I watched every episode ... up until the original three left. Of the three Holly was my least favourite. This book however has changed my opinion of her. I was sympathising and laughing throughout.
The anecdotes and the reasonings why anyone would choose to be a ‘girlfriend’ are so alien to me, but this is an aspiration for many. And of course they slept with Hef, why else would they be living with him. The post Hef era with the awful illusionist (I can’t be bothered to write his name as he isn’t worthy 😂) and her meeting her Mr Forever show that one can definitely make the best lemonade from the lemons life throws at you.

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4 out of 5 stars
By Anonymous User on 03-06-18

loved!

really nice relatable story, couldn't put it down x z x x x x x

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3 out of 5 stars
By Roz on 12-28-15

Lacked Flow

I enjoyed this story and was interested in Holly's back story having watched The Girls Next Door. I listened to the whole book start to finish on a long haul flight and found that it lacked flow and narrative, the chapters would start on one subject but need to be backed up by other past events. Entertaining though and didn't require me to listen too carefully.

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3 out of 5 stars
By Amazon Customer on 10-24-15

Both great and rubbish

I found this book really good in the beginning. You can definitely relate to her struggles while young, and understand more about what drew her to the house and made her stay too long.
However it is peppered with random catty comments and weird references to how well she is doing now. I think if this book was restructured with some pointless stories removed (for example when she bought Kendra a matching skirt?), it would sound less one -sided.
Generally Holly is likeable and the first half of this book is great, the second half however falls into boring feuds and references to how much money she earns - hence boring.

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